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A smile grew on my face as I read a note from my childhood. Akala ko tinapon na 'to ni Mama noong lumipat kami ng bahay pagtungtong ko ng college. Turned out she kept everything in a memory box.
The door creaked open and my mother came into view.
"Tapos ka na bang magligpit, nak?"
"Oo, Ma. Nandyan na ba 'yung truck?"
"Oo nasa labas na. Naglabas na ng ilang gamit mo si Papa mo."
Tumayo naman ako at dinala ang ilan pang boxes sa kwarto ko at sumunod sa akin si Mama.
I had been planning to move out for three years but I was afraid to leave my parents alone, lalo na at only child ako. Pero tumatanda na rin ako at gusto ko ring ma-experience na mamuhay mag-isa.
Good thing was I was able to save while working my ass off for eight years. Pagka-graduate na pagka-graduate ko ay humanap agad ako ng trabaho. Buti na lang at cum laude ako kaya 'yong pinag-intern-an ko ay agad akong kinontact at nag-offer ng trabaho.
"Bye, Ma! Bye, Pa!" sigaw ko nang makaakyat ako sa passenger seat ng truck.
They both stood at the doorway with yearning smiles on their faces. "Nak, alagaan mong mabuti ang sarili mo at mag-isa ka na lang," my mother reminded.
"Don't get sick," dagdag ni Papa.
I choked back the tears that were threatening to come out and ordered the driver to go. For the last time, I waved goodbye to them and watched them disappear from my sight through the side mirror.
For years, I did what I needed to do—save money for my future and my parents so that they could live a comfortable life. Nakapagpatayo ako ng bago naming bahay at iyon ang iiwan ko sa mga magulang ko. Mayroon din akong ginawang savings para sa kanila para kung kailangan man nila ng extra na pera ay mayroon silang magastos.
They were both working until a few years ago at kung hindi pa ako nagpumilit na tumigil sila ay ipagpapatuloy pa rin nila kahit hirap na hirap na sila.
"Nak, ayaw naming maging pabigat sa'yo."
Iyon ang lagi nilang sinasabi. They would always say that it's the parents' responsibility to raise their children because they bore them into this world, but children should not be obliged to pay them back. Maybe that's the case for some, but my parents gave up so much for me and did not, even once, tell me that they regretted having me. They showered me with love and I wanted to do the same because they deserved it.
Kaya kahit halos magkasakit na ako sa laging pag-o-overtime at walang pahinga kahit weekend ay hindi ko ininda. For eight years, I was a corporate slave and sacrificed everything to save a lot of money. At nagbunga naman iyon.
Now that I'm 28, I'm going to do the things that I've always wanted to do. For the first time in years, I'm having a break.
This time, I want to be happy.